My Pride and My Promise

End is Near...

2011-11-10T15:31:00.003+08:00

Hey blog. Long time no see.

Just to let you know, my olevels is over. Well... almost. 14 november will be last. As for now, i'm busy watching some videos.

I'm totally in Gossip Girls. I watch it every single time if i have chance. Watching season 2 now. Really hoping that Serena and Dan will get back together. They are so hot for each other. I know is just a tv shows but i'm so jealous that people are together. At least they have one another. Not like me, alone.

My family is good, i guess. This year really helps me practice with my patience and angry level. Really hope everything is okay. Just imagine how i suffer by listening all those chaos while studying for my important exam of my life. Both of it is my future. If one of it crash down, its the end of me.

I bet my friends don't understand this. They didn't experience it. They are just lucky that it did not turn out like mine.

:: Mum, thank you for all those patience with dad. I would like to apologize of how I behave when in front of him. I just can't stand of it how he dare to hurt you. I agree with you that I'm young but I'm still trying to understand this problem. Whatever happens, I will promise to take care of you. ::

xoxo Shidah

2011-03-11T22:44:00.003+08:00

Evening blogger!

Yes, I'm back with some stories.

1) National Police Annual Parade

My whole March holiday burn but well... First time joining it, so I'm super excited for it.

I will be wearing no.1. Yes ah!!!

2) D&T

I'm making stamp holder. I bet people would think, why I'm making an album?

Then, they are wrong! Hope this going to be an awesome project.

Also, getting at least a A2. Hopefully man! D&T is the only subject I'm good at.

So pray for me that i won't be that lazy bum like last year.

3) Just now Diana came to np. Yeah! I was so happy to see her.

From me feeling down, she makes me feel more motivated after

sir told about the recipient who will be getting their SPF badge.

Diana also my good dear friend. Always help me specially

in studies. Love her so much!!

Yup, that's all.
I will try to keep on blogging if i have the time.

Signing off,

Rashidah

New Year!

2011-01-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

First of all, i would like to wish Happy New Year to everyone!
Second, I'm going to start school next week.
Third, taking my o'level this year.

It's the start of the new year, but i don't feel anything.
Stuck at home, watching tv with dad. Siblings are out.
My mom already asleep, long time ago.
Such a wonderful new year!

Well, what is my new year resolution??
Seriously, i don't know. Obviously I want to pass my Os.
Maybe wish to have a boyfriend. Nah... just kidding.
Studies always come first. My mom always said, you can
find one during poly. Hahaha. Awesome or what mom!

Hope my friends won't forget me! I really miss you guys!
Going to be lonely during school time. Maybe be a good girl and
go home straight for now onwards. Yeah... I heard school can bring
phone. Bad idea principle! Bad idea! Now, the students will
keep their hands busy messaging. Not concentrating
in class. Oh wait! I already did that!! Hahahhaa!
Good times... good times...

My dear SCF, hope our friendship stays long alright!
I'm so gonna miss you every second when i'm in school.
Now, there's nobody going to wait for me at the canteen.
I bet i'm going to be very busy when i start school.
Do go out every ones in awhile. Love ya!!

Shafiqa, opps... I mean Naafisya. I'm so not getting use to this!
I will try, sorry if i still call you shafiqa. Thanks for enduring
my crazy behavior for the past 3 years. Especially in front of hot guys!
You know how i acted. Hehe! Now, i got nobody to chat
with after school. All the best in the future!
Don't ever ever ever forget about me alright!! Will miss you many2!
Bacause i know i will!

Farizah!! I know you not going to check this. But then, i would like my
blog to know you better. Well... she's my good friend! Somehow,
whenever i feel down she always give me such a wonderful advice.
I never expected her to give me that kind of advice.
Yeah, a great friend! Good luck in your future. I wish that
you get the laptop that you want. Haha! And that game. ^^

Ahh... yes squadmates! You guys are the best!! Never ever disappoint
me to make me laugh. Always there to keep cheering for each other.
I will always try to go out with you crazy people! Don't forget to
come by and find me!! Miss ya!!!

Hello!

2010-12-24T12:38:00.003+08:00

Hello my dear blog,

Look at you... Very dusty. Its okay, today I’m here to make you look alive.

You want to know something, I’m going to sec5 next year! Yeah, I pass.

Thank god! But then I very disappointed because my points is super big.

Almost fail. My family told me its okay, as long I get promoted they are

very happy. Even my friends said that I should work harder next year.

Of course I will!! I don't like to disappoint my mom! I also try to avoid ITE.

I want to become the only person in the family that doesn’t need to go ITE.

I don't even know whether people got read my blog or not.

But I know you will blog! That's why I always love.

I’m truly sorry if I’ve been ignoring you bloggy. I was caught up with

my life but forget to update you.

Alright, I will tell you my problem okay. The biggest problem I’m facing

at home is my dad. He sucks man!! Is it me or all men are the same??

Why must they neglect their responsibility?? Piss off, like seriously...

I cannot handle this problem. I really afraid something bad happen

in the future. That means I need to work harder, fivetimesmore,

if i want to have a better future. I will do this for you mum! Love you!

Oh ya, going out later with squad mates. Celebrate Christmas.

Not real of course, just a fake one. There will be gift exchange.

Yeah, whoever I pick the name later, hope the person won't be

angry. Hope you will like it because if I get that as a gift I will

be very grateful.

That’s all alright!

= Peace! =

2010-09-28T19:08:00.003+08:00

On 23rd of September, went out with my classmates.
It was my first raya with them but it was awesome!
My friends said that, me and him,
looks like a couple. So we out do our self and try
to become a good couple together. Haha! So pathetic.

Oh ya, this week, on the 1st October is my last day of school.
Everyone can't wait for it including me. I'm so excited!
My friends are discussing about what are we
going to do on the last day. I heard there will be flour,
people going to be wet and so on.
Oh my god! Can't wait!!

Whoever reading this, always remember to treat
everyday special as if they were their last.

About Everything!!

2010-08-16T17:29:00.008+08:00

(My Nephew and me)

Oh My God!! Look at today date and the previous post! Damn far.... So one thing I would like to summaries the whole reason why I'm not updating my blog is I'M SUPER BUSY!! Yup, so true. When i was about to log in, i even forget the password. How cool is that! There a lot of things happening for the past few months. Let me tell you about past the events that i only remember. 1) June, My 16th birthday! They are the sweetest people who make their Saturday to be free just to celebrate my birthday. I would like thanks (From the left to right) Peishan, Farizah, Maimon, Weiting, ChuQian, Shafiqa and Diana. I swear, however there is no birthday party, but is the best birthday i ever had. Thank you people!! I love you always! 2) July, My sister and my mom's birthday!

( The cake was awesome! )

( A little kiss from me )

3) August, Peishan's birthday. < We have a small celebration at Vivo. My little peishan is growing up...

4) I finally finish my dnt. Woohoo!!<br>

This is my design. A simple ' security box '. I named it Heart Secret. The reason is, i make this for the teenagers girls because they have a lot of secrets to share and they can write it at a paper and keep it inside this box. There have a drawer that can keep maybe their electronic gadgets so that their parents will not have a chance to check it. Finishing touches was done by my dear teacher. Yeah, sweet teacher want us to pass. 4) Prelim is here! 3 subjects done, 3 more to go. 5) If I'm not mistaken, 3 more weeks to my N level. That means i must stop all my nonsense and try to put the books in front of my face and revise. A bit shaky here and there but i will not give up. That is all for now, bye people who are reading this!

I miss SCF and DAE!!

2010-04-09T17:32:00.003+08:00

Three things that i wanted to tell everyone!

ONE:

Happy belated Anniversary to DAE!! I really miss you people!

Hope that we can go out one day okay! Maybe cycling. Or watch movie.

Two:

Happy Anniversary to SCF!! 19th months and still counting!

I still remember that first time we met, we never even talk to each other.

But now, we are very close. Wish that our friendship will really last even

though you all will graduate out from the school and I have to come

back for my Olevel next year. So now, I'm working hard for my N and yours

too for both. Don't give up kay! We are in this together!

Love each everyone of you!

Lastly to my dearest squadmates,

Our last parade together was damn fun.

Taking pictures together was the best!

Now left speech day but some didn't join. :'(

Nevermind, we do know that they will come to see us march, right!!

Anyway, I will miss everyone of you! Can say most of us gets

Sergeant and staff Sergeant. Only few is corporal and lance corporal.

The thing is, it doesn't matter what rank you all are holding

but the friendship that we had is priceless. Not a single cent can buy this.

Can say that we are very bond with one another however I'm only close

with some of them. Also, I would like to apologize if I did anything wrong

towards all of you! Whatever it is, i already miss you people!

Super Crazy Friends

2010-03-15T17:25:00.014+08:00

Here to tell you a story about my 3 wonderful friends.

I started to know them when I'm a sec 1.

I'm very quite, shy and innocent person. Don't know how to make friends. If i always have problem, i always kept it to myself.

Then, i met this people. Peishan, Weiting and Chuqian. They are same CCA with me. They are very wild, loud, noisy. They know how to have fun and very enthusiastic. They started talking to me and asking me question about myself. They asked me out one day and we had a blast!

I was very glad to meet them and make friends. They have helped me changed my attitude and personality. Slowly, I trust them even more than i trust my classmates. 3 of them become my best friends which i need during this moment of time.

This is Peishan. A very hyper one. Like rainbows. Always go dating with her Amath on every weekend. Always think about a positive things. Usually complain about her homework and her favourite teacher is Ms Ho!! Hahaha!

Alright, Weiting here! The chubby one Hahaha! I'm kidding. She like black. Always like to have fun. Don't care about studies. Always ask people to go out. She like to complain about the teachers in school. I never even see her doing her homework before. Oh ya, she likes to disturb people when she's bored.

Firstly, I get to know them in campcraft 2008. It was the best until some people called us...

3 Little Kittens!!

Then, through out the years, I get to know one more person who is Koh Chuqian!

She like green. Very clever. But every time i look at her, she is very stressful person. Always have problems but she is a strong person who know how to overcome it. When we go out, always have phone at her hand because of .... Yet she is the most craziest among the rest.

From here we become.... Super Crazy Friends!!

We even go camps together. So we eat, sleep together. Been tortured together and get ourself in trouble before. But we still stay strong.

The reason why i wrote this because i'm sorry that i always forget our anniversary. Never buy present to you all. Sometimes busy with my own life. I'm sorry again. So whatever happens, hope that our friendship will last even after we graduate. ^_^

Don't Give Up!

2010-03-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

I don't care about what other thinks! I do know that my campcraft

girls is very strong!! Like what sir said, was not one person fault but

is the whole team. So what it is, I don't want you girls to be sad anymore.

You should be happy. The good thing is, we don't need to stay back after school

anymore!! While the guys are under the sun sweating.

Boys, hope you guys don't drop your standards. There are a lot of
thing for you guys need to catch up on your shelter. So don't disappoint us okay!
I will support you guys! Remember, don't give up till the last second!

All of our Time Spent in Flashes of Light

2010-02-15T17:37:00.003+08:00

What's Up Everyone!!
4 days of rest! I don't even know that it is sufficient for
my body to relax. My dnt still undone. Need to put my
mind and heart into it because i want to get a distinction
for my dnt in N level. Really hoping for it. Really work hard
for it and what I learn from my friends, never give up half way.
Or the logo that my class make is, When Something Not Right
Turn Left. Another one that my class invented is
Don't Look Back, Look Forward. All this phrases have help me to
move forward when something disappoint me.

Left few more days for the boys campcraft prelim
and 2 more weeks for the girls. I'm getting nervous
each day. Believe me, it is scary when the date is getting nearer.
Its kinda sad that peishan, or the others can't support because
the HQ send a letter that say only 11 people can come to support
excluding the officers. Even the ex campcraft can't come. Sad man!
Whatever happens, we must be there to support each other right!

Tired to Think. Tired to Do. Tired to Wake Up to go to School.

2010-01-25T12:39:00.006+08:00

Hello to my Wonderful people! Your guess is right, I didn't go to
school today. I was sick since Friday. My voice change. Having
flu, cough and the worst part, i have difficulty to breathe.
Maybe because my body is too tired with the training which is
held in school. Everyday non stop. Reach home at 7pm almost 8.
Do my homework till 12 and go to sleep. 5.45am need to wake
up to go to school again.

Anyway I should be strong. I won't let my girls team down.
They need a vice captain. And I am here for them! Tomorrow
I will be there for them! Left 1 month to go. Let's
give our best with the remaining time that we have! Jiayou!

Christmas Day!

2009-12-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!
Early in the morning had a shocking news. That
my uncle passed away. My dad came in the my room
and asked my sister and I to wake up because
his dear brother passed away. I was neutral
because I'm still sleepy. Hahaha!
So the only thing I do is just to opened my
eyes but without saying anything.
The whole day at Tampines. Pray for him however
I'm not really close to him.
I swear I won't forget this very
day after I grow up or even I get married. I think.

KCQ, I heard that you are getting better. That's good!
Remember to eat your medicine everyday. Drink more water.
Have a balance diet. Maybe we can go out other days alright!
Take care! And I will see you on Monday! Love you!

:: Tears Dripping ::

2009-12-12T22:20:00.012+08:00

Tomorrow Chuqian is coming back! YEAH!!!
Miss her man! I miss SCF! I miss Dae! I miss my squadmates even
the seniors.
But too bad can't go out with them. Like people said, they all
busy with their own life. Including me! I'm gonna
busy next week onwards because of campcraft. So that
means I'm gonna miss my tv shows. Also less going out
with scf. I can't imagine my life without them.
Browsing through some photos makes me remember the fun time
we had.

I miss this!

All this people makes my life happening!!

SCF Outing!!

2009-11-26T01:17:00.002+08:00

Went out with my 3 lovable scf yesterday. The weather can be summarize with one word which is, HOT!!!. Damn freaking hot. Stop by at imm do some shopping. After all that walking, lastly HOME SWEET HOME!

DECISION!!!

2009-11-19T17:08:00.003+08:00

Thank you for everything PEISHAN!!
I know is hard to make one good decision.
Just don't feel regret, okay! I will support
you all the way. Maybe this time, if i get
chosen, i will make this winning for you.
Gonna miss my ex twine girl!

By rashidah

2009-11-19T16:07:00.001+08:00

Hello :) I'm peishan, helped rashidah to change blogskin. Nice?? Enjoy. Hhaha.

Should I Quit?

2009-11-02T11:21:00.003+08:00

Got back my results,and can say I did well this year.
Just that i failed my maths only. On my second week of November,
I need to go back to school for some tuition conduct by my maths
teacher. I'm just lazy to go back to school but what do you expect,
is for my future right! Maybe do some exercise on my own will help.
My form teacher ask,"So Rashidah, when are you going to start practicing?"
And my reply is "On my second week of my holidays!" Haha! Just hope that
i keep my words yeah.

Having a lot of things in my mind. Still choosing whether I should
go this way or that. Maybe giving up is the best choice. Should I?
I just can't think anymore. What's wrong with me??

High Temperature

2009-10-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

Left 1 more paper tomorrow and I'm sick!
Why now? Why not after exam?
Hope that my eyes will not be swollen tomorrow
or else, I can say Goodbye to my DnT exam!
Goodbye to my marks!
No wait! I can't just let go. I need to pass my
DnT. I must!

Definition

2009-10-07T18:56:00.001+08:00

The Greatest Thing of Love

is to Love and Beloved In Return

Losing you...

2009-09-28T18:10:00.003+08:00

I miss the day on the 8 of August 2009.
It was the most memorial day ever.
But now, is different.
Stupidity of mine have lost you.
I just let it slip off from my hands.
Just like that! What am I gonna do?
Every time, I saw you and her. Makes me
wanna jump off the roof. However I treat you
like normal, doesn't mean my feelings for
you had lost. Yes, I'm weak.
I need a lot of time for me to
build up the strength for myself.

I'm sorry. I didn't do it on purpose, really.
I thought you okay with it as I was being myself.
But then, my thought was wrong and now I lost you.
How am I so stupid? Now, I don't think he gonna
come back to me. I don't think he gonna give me
another chance.

All left is my dignity.

Let's Clelebrate!!

2009-09-20T23:45:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends!! Today is the day I can eat and eat nonstop. But then, we didn't go out as 1)My mom's legs still swollen. 2)My clothes are not ready. Cool or what? Actually I'm find with it because I don't need to wear high heel or else, my foot gonna be super pain. So I think, we will not going out unless we rent a car. Also, I had my haircut yesterday. Yes, now is short. So in the morning when going to school, don't need to waste time to tie my hair. Now, don't care is it messy or not. I'm gonna end here. Lastly, forgive me if I ever hurt your feelings and the sin I did to you. Maaf zahir dan Batin

The Day I Felt Wanna Kill Myself!

2009-09-01T16:31:00.004+08:00

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!
Why must the world turn against me?
Why, why?? My mom keep nagging at me
and saying that if your brother is around,
the chores had been done long time ago.
She keep comparing me and my brother.
Well, hello?? I'm different.
Everyone is different. You can say that
I'm lazy like my sister. Of course, I look up
on her. When I went to Honk Kong,
she was the one who allowed me to go. Not you mom!
Not dad, but her! You actually don't allowed me to go!
And with her support, I went there and have fun. That's the
reason why I never buy anything for 2 of you!
Anyway, one more thing. I'm sick of doing washing dishes.
Everyday, after fast, you people will quickly say
"Shidah will do the dishes!!" And all the plates will
go to me. You think, I'm your maid! From there, my mom
will lecture me about everyone in the family
have a job to play. Blah blah blah....I don't give a fucking care!!
If you said everyone, why not dad do the dishes for
a change?? Huh!! Why he didn't sweep the floor?? or
Mop the house?? or even clean the store room?
Why must he so busy at downstairs but not at his own house??
Or the best, why he didn't find a better job so he can
support his own children? It is sick you know that!

I don't know what's wrong with you this few days. You have been so quite. And now is like I feel that
I'm back to square one again.

Happened Without a Reason

2009-08-25T17:25:00.008+08:00

I lost in this world. Trying to be happy in outside
but inside is crash and burn. Now, I'm asking myself
whether to be with you. But what do other thinks.
I don't want to be a bad person who do this.
I'm just do it for love. Maybe some of them is right,
love is a small word but a bigger meaning which no
one will understand. Right now, it feel like deja vu
all over again. I can't put myself in this situation anymore.
Not like last year. Is just too hard for me to recover those
broken pieces back together again. I can't take this.
Whenever you hold my hands, I want you more.
The love that I had is getting stronger. But how can I
overcome this. Especially you with that person. Every morning,
I purposely walk past the canteen to look at you. To see you smile,
laugh. However, you are not my dream guy but you have the quality that
I want.

Just forget it. What for I think so much about this when
you are happy with the person. I shouldn't interrupt other peoples
relationship. This is not me. This is not who I am. Maybe let's
just fate to do this.

***********************************************************************
I'm sorry to scold you. I didn't mean it.
I'm just over reacting because we have a lot
of things to do than there you are not happy
with them. Like you said, you hand over them to us.
Then, there you are writing about them at your blog.
Is our responsibility. Is whether they listen to us or not.
Is our problem. Not yours but us. However we are running out
of time, but we try out best to get them to know their things
well. Do you know, when I read it, I felt that I'm not a good NCO.
I don't mind you want to look at them during your free time.
But, with respect, try not to write things about them.
***********************************************************************

PEISHAN!!

2009-08-08T23:15:00.003+08:00

Happy 15th Birthday Peishan!!!
My sweet little kitten have grow up *sob sob*
Haha! Anyway, thanks for everything!
However we only close when we sec1/2,
but i really appreciate your company.
We have been a good friend since campcraft
and hope we can continue our friendship till
we old.

Love you always!

In Between

2009-08-07T17:25:00.006+08:00

Why I have to feel this way? It sucks! The day I should
be happy and then memories just rushed through my mind.
I still remember we took pictures outside the school.
You purposely cover my face whenever the people are
taking my pictures. And the best thing is, you are
wearing the same colour as me.
I really hate this! Whenever this happens, I became
so weak.I really miss you. And during my birthday,
you appeared out of nowhere, is the best birthday
present I ever had. But now, I can’t even look at you.
The only place to see you is to look through your pictures.

I really need someone to accompany, look after me
because now, I can’t even take care of myself.
I feel useless. I can’t even make my own decision.
All because of this some people who didn’t appreciate
the help they get. I want to have this people who are
there for me but now, I know they are too busy for me.
I wouldn’t want to interrupt them about my boring stories.

Yes, all this while I have been putting a fake smile.
Even I like them or not. I have been controlling my
feelings all this time. Is just hard to show a sad
face when you know people will hate it. So the best
is just smile when you know you don’t feel like it.

All the best with your journey!

Didn't expect to happen

2009-07-22T23:19:00.003+08:00

Hey to all you people!
Yes, yes I finally update after such a long period of time.

So many things happen, and I become weaker and weaker
everyday because not enough sleep. Been busy like always.
And I have a good new and bad.

The good news is, I become the sec1 NCO. The bad, they didn't
cooperate.*sigh* And right now, I have to force myself to sleep
late to finish up the proposal. We have so many things to teach
in that short period of time. More worst, their promotion test
is less than a month for us to get them ready. But they have alot
to learn. Hope they can absorb fast.

*yawn* I can't open my eyes much longer. I can't even think
properly. I just wanna lay down. But i still haven finish yet.
Thank god that my buddies is Weilun and Chuqian. Hope we can
work together and get this done.

I think this is the time I need to leave.
Goodbye my blog. I will update you again
some other time. Or next month. Hehe!

Don't waste your time...

2009-06-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

Good Evening to all my readers.

Maybe you all are wondering, how I spent my day?
I can say that today, Friday 19 June, I spent it wisely.

I woke up at 8am. Showered and get ready to follow
my family to the wet market.( Not a big fan thought)
When we reached there, found a great spot for me
to wait for them as they walking around buying
the things they need. After that, we had our breakfast.
Went home and carry on with my chores.

After that is my time to relax. I jump in bed and
read the storybook which I borrowed yesterday at
the library. About 7.30pm to be exact, I done reading it.
Is my first time read a book with 247 page in 1 day.
Is that cool! Usually I will take like 2 weeks
to finish reading. Maybe I should read more
so I can pass my English. And get better grade. But I'm
so not ready to read a thicker books. Sometimes, I really
need to have the right mood to read a book.

Now, chatting with friends and blogging. Wow...
I really used up my time wisely. Didn't believe it.
Usually I will rot at home. Find food at the cabinets
like a mouse. And watch television all day long.

I read the newspaper just now, and the MOE said MAYBE
they going to extend the holidays because of the H1N1.
Hope it doesn't happen. Because if they extent, that's mean
our September holidays will be gone! *sigh*
I heard from the radio that the number of H1N1 is getting
higher and higher everyday. Just hope this doesn't affect my
friends.

I would like to end my post here.
Goodnight people and take care!

Is there something wrong with me?
Why I always face the same problem?
Why I need to use my harsh words to
hurt people? Especially to my friend
who need someone to be with now and
I make that person hurt. I don't even
know in their heart, maybe they hate me.
But I do know, I should stay calm and put
myself in other peoples shoe.

2009-06-09T18:00:00.004+08:00

Yo People!

My first week of holidays gone just like that.
It have been used up by my CCA like usual.

Let's talk about my birthday. It falls on the Friday

5 June. Finally 15th yeah! But my family still

treating me like a baby. *sigh* No choice because

I'm the youngest.

On the 5th June,

I had course on that day. During the course, my squad

sang a birthday song to me. Kind a embarrassed because
they were singing in front the 2 unknown school.

After the course we were outside the Hong Kah sec.

They bashed me with water. I was wet while I went

back home. It was cooling. Haha! And they bought me a bag.

Of course is Adidas. Anyway thanks guys!

As for my sister, she bring me to the PUSSYCAT DOLLS CONCERT!

Is really fun but too bad is not their best performance.

I think they are too tired. Perform so many countries.

No rest. But they are making a lot of fortune.

I think in 1 year, they make more money than my father.

For my brother, he bought me perfume.

It smells nice. Sweet.

For the rest of my family, they give me $$$$.

Need to save them inside my bank because my

mom said if I hold too much money later i will use

it all up. That's why I don't want to go out too often.

As outing = more money come out. Need to save yeah.

Finally have birthday cake this year. Yeah!!

Home Sweet Home

2009-06-01T23:20:00.004+08:00

>bR>I'm Baaaccckkk!!!!

I thought the NCO camp is going to be tough
but actually is super fun to the max.
My hands are aching after holding the rifle almost
the whole day. And the most important news ever is...

I PASS MY
SERGEANT PROMOTION TEST!!!

I thought i'm gonna fail again because when
sir is giving out the result, he took such
a long time to find my name. I was proud
of myself. No matter what, my rank won't stop
here. There still 1 more left for me to achieve.
I will do my best to achieve the next rank. To Weiting, I want to apologize if you didn't get what you wanted. Don't give up. If you need help, I will always here to help you.

Yeah, not forgetting Happy birthday Haziq Daniel!! Oh My God! You are 4 years old. You grew so much. I still remember the first day when you came to my house. You like only 3 months old. Miss you!! Hope you will come to my house on my birthday. Love you! I know this is kind a late post. So trying my best not to post after midnight. My post will end here. Have a good rest my fellow NCOs!

Gonna be away...

2009-05-29T17:34:00.004+08:00

Been so freaking long i never update. So much happen. Get back my results and suppose today will be parents meeting. Lazy to follow because I want to rest before going to camp tomorrow. Yes, yes tomorrow going to camp. Will be back on Monday afternoon. I will try to post about it but no promise alright. I was disappointing yesterday Haziq did not came to my house. Miss him terribly. Never get a chance to say goodbye. And his birthday is coming soon. Which is on Monday 1st of June. Hope he will come next Monday. Rashidah miss Haziq... All the action people do. The words they use to me have make me remember you. The day I buy my rations for my camp, have make me think about you. I still remember last year you help me carry my stuff. You fetch me after my training and follow me buy my rations. You carry my things but I have to follow you walking around the mall to see shoes. I was exhausted that time but you force me to follow. However it is sweet of you to fetch me. However now I didn't really message you like how I use to. Hope you will achieve your dreams and good luck for everything.

Labour day!

2009-05-04T18:58:00.023+08:00

It started out with a fine weather early in the morning. But then, the noise outside my room have interrupted my beautiful sleep. Wake up in a hurry and have my quick shower after my sister nag at me for waking up late. Dress up and ready to go. Go out with my two cousins, my sister and her new boyfriend to Istana. I was sweating all the time as the sun is just right on top of our heads. Now, I better shut up and let the pictures do the talking.

I realise that going there is so boring. Nothing interesting. Just there are alot of trees everywhere. Didn't manage to upload all the pictures. Lazy to wait.

So we U-turn and off to vivo city.

My Baby Elephant is cute right?!?!

My wonderful day last. And it is back to exam.

Where everybody is going to be very stressful.

Will not be blogging anymore post till everything is

OVER.

Love can sometimes be magic.

But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion

Happy Birthday Best Friend!

2009-04-18T21:20:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 15 TH BIRTHDAY SHAH!

You have been such a wonderful friend
since sec1. You like a brother to me.
All the sorrows I have been through, you are
there for me. The words you use to me, have
help me to get up on my feet again. I love you man!
I want to apologize that I'm not
there to celebrate your special day.
I'll promise you that I will celebrate your belated
birthday on Monday, alright!

Whoever is reading this, don't think too much.
He is just my best friend who I can rely on.
He knows how to make me happy when I'm down.
Every parade without fail, he will make me laugh
non stop. Without him, the squad will be boring.
Hope you have fun today!

Love rashidah

Love The Weather

2009-04-05T11:56:00.003+08:00

In the morning I wake up, it was hot and humid.
I was thinking to have a slow jog around my neighborhood.
But suddenly, dark clouds appeared. It was raining cats and
dogs.However it spoils my plan but this is the weather I love
the most.Just hopping to play in the rain but I can't.
Next day, I need to attend school.I can't skip school again.
There are so much for me to do and for me to study.
I really need to buck up almost everything especially
my maths, physic, social studies and geography.
It really sucks you know that. Exams is around the corner
but the thing is, I don't understand anything about my
humanities. Somebody have been tutor me about geography
and I understand. Just that i need somebody to tutor me on
my social studies. And the worst part is, my ss teacher is
one of my teacher officer in Np. So anything happen, she
can just tell my officer about how's my performance in class.
Shitto! She even tell me that, you are my cadet, so I want a
good performance from you." How sad can I be!

You have been such a great friend.

And now, I think you have forget about me.
Lastly before I go,
Have a good life.

Day out!

2009-03-17T18:35:00.003+08:00

16/3

This day suppose to be my brother birthday.
Not Tashima but my 2nd brother.
Happy Belated Birthday!!

Alright back here.
In the morning, have my shooting. Yeah I only
drop by 1 mark. And i will achieve harder.
Mr Yeo ask the C division girls to get 300.
And it's like their score not even reach 250.
Anyway, sorry if I'm being sarcastic.

While walking to the interchange, we saw this
bangladesh following us. And he keep touching
his co_ k. Me and Suriati was walking very fast to the
interchange. Then Suriati was showing middle finger at
him also scold him b*****d to him. For me, I just keep quite
and continue to walk. You see, I'm such a good person.

Then meet our primary school friends. Yeah I miss them.
Namirah and Amalina came. But to bad Ayu didn't follow.
She rock my world during primary 6. And I miss her badly.
Walk here, walk there. In the end we at the library.
We almost kena kick out because we were laughing loudly.
And home sweet home.

17/3

Today! Actually my shooting session suppose to be at 1pm.
Because I have my pw, I need to come in the morning.
Yeah I finally achieve the target that I wanted. It's over 300
like finally. Now my next target is 310. I try my best.
It's okay if i didn't make it in the main team. But at least
I'm happy with the score during the training.
Ps, sorry Zana if u alone. I didn't mean to leave you like this.

Have my pw. The instructor was teaching so fast and I didn't
know which is which. Then the china girl sat beside me and
keep asking me how to do. I was like teaching and teaching
and it was so frustrated because she keep saying to me
"I don't know". I was like @!&@*(!&@!^@&!^@.
But, I didn't give up on her. Because I know how is it feel
if you don't understand some things. I must learn to keep
my patience level low, so in the future if my cadet ask me question,
I will not scream or shout at them if they didn't get it right for their first
try. You see, I'm getting myself prepared to be coming a NCO. And I will not
let my seniors down, especially Shafiqa.

Alright, need to continue my mt project.
Night people!

New MP3!

2009-03-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

Hello to all my readers.
On 12 March, I just bought myself a new MP3!
It cost me around 200 bucks.
All my hard work of saving my money is paying off.
Yeah!! Now i can listen to it whenever i want.
I don't need to borrow from my bother or sister
mp3. Actually I wanted to buy pink colour but later
my brother, Tashima, always ask me for the mp3.
So i buy black instead. Samsung brand. Don't ask me why
most of my electronic stuff are samsung, even my cell phone
are the same brand...haiz.

Next week, all kindergarten, primary school and what ever school,
are having their 1 week holidays except me. I need to go to
school like everyday.

Monday : I have shooting training.

Tuesday: I have shooting training in the morning including the pw.

Wednesday and Thursday : Police Knowledge and Home Front course.

Friday : NE learning to Bukit Chandu.

I don't even have a day off. Not even one.
This is tough alright. I hate being in a shooting team.
I want to come back to join the squad. But i need to wait,
because the competition is 2 more weeks...haiz.
Better wait than nothing.

All this while, you think you are so good But you are not!

Goodbye Sir!

2009-03-07T13:15:00.003+08:00

To Sir Johann,

Thanks for everything.
I want to apologize that,
however we didn't bond,
we didn't make a great team
but we still trying. Give us time.
All the teaching, the scolding, the pumping
it just became our memories.
And it can't be replace.
Please come back more often
and also come during the NCO camp,
that is during my birthday.
Good luck for everything and also remember

' Life in the unit sometimes will be tough but the rewards are plenty '

and

' For in life the greater the difficulty, the more the glory is mounting it '

Yours Truly,
Rashidah

Valentine Day!

2009-02-14T18:41:00.004+08:00

Today is valentine.
Suppose today going out with the shooting team.
But MYLITTLEPEISHAN have her valentine
with her books at home. So just stay at home.
Got nothing better to do but just eat my chocolates
and become a potato couch. That is my weekend routine
.
I hate being alone. Why I still haven find my prince yet?
Why I need to suffer? Why when I'm alone,
nobody come and comfort me?

I know you out there right now.
Maybe have fun with your friends.
Or maybe going out with your date. I don't know.
I still remember that day when we first met.
I still remember you message me and tell me
that you not going to leave me. I still remember
you give me a birthday message.
I still remember the day you give me this phone.
There are so much memories i need to hold.
I don't know I can take it or not. Your absentees
in my life have made me weaker. In every day,
in every hour, in every second I can't take
the truth that you are not in the same school anymore.
Everyday I keep thinking, do you still remember me?

Anyway, Happy Valentine!

Achievement

2009-02-08T13:32:00.003+08:00

Hello to all my reader.
You see those two badges, this is the prove that
i been busy with npcc. I took a lot of efforts to get that
badge especially my drill badge. My name was
the first to call. I was shock and happy.
My heart pound non stop. I never felt this feelings
since last year when something happen to me.
I get my marksmanship badge on 5/2 and the drill
badge on 6/2.

To Chuqian, don't be upset.
You put all your heart and soul into this.
Maybe is not your fault. Maybe you just scared.
Maybe you don't have enough confidence.
But deep inside you, I know you are a great
shooter. So don't worry so much, because
there are a lot of friends will be there for you.

To the rest of my squad mates, I'm sorry if you
all never get the badge.Just remember, don't give up
on yourself. Definitely,there will have a re-test.
So, work hard and strive for your goal. And also remember,
to make Sir Johann happy.

2009-02-02T19:45:00.004+08:00

Hello!!
Omg!! See the dates!! It's been a long time i never post.
Well, not I'm lazy or what, just I've been very busy.
I'm a very busy girl, okay! However I'm a normal academic,
I still study like i'm a express student. Zah!! Dream on RASHIDAH!
Anyway, come back to reality. I get a secondhand phone from my friend.
That person give me for free, sweet right!! So now i have an easier access
to msg my friends.
Sorry to make this post short but i have to go.
See You!

Misses

2009-01-24T11:33:00.006+08:00

Sorry for not posting such a long period of time. I've been very busy. And the percentage of my school life is getting higher. Like in school 70%. At home 30%. In school, studies 37%. Cca 33%. Now, i don't have time for myself. I miss the days when we be together. Now, it just be a memories to me.

Busy Busy Busy!!

2009-01-11T15:17:00.003+08:00

Hello!!!
It's only the first week of school and there a lot of things coming
up to me. First, was about the cca preparation. I
need to stay back after school to help. Second, was about
my homework. Almost every single day there some assignment
I need to do. Third, the cca open house. I can say it was a successful
one just some screw up here and there. After that, I need to go to my
cousin wedding. She is very pretty but from far when she sits at the dais,
she like a barbie doll. Haha, no offence. (Oh ya i forget, cuz don't forget
to bring me along to your honeymoon, please!!! I don't want to go to school!!
Love ya always!~ shidah)

Right now, I'm super super super super tired. I can't even think straight.
The only think i can do is sleep but too bad I can't because i have tons
of homework especially my mother tongue. Damn that teacher.
I can't manage my time well. I need help. I can say this year is a
vary busy year for me. My studies, my cca, collapse at one go.
Even my birthday I can't celebrate all because of camping.
I was so devastating after i find out. More worse, none of my friends
remember.

Just forget it. There is no use of crying. It can't solve my problems.
The only think I can do is to get my thinking straight.

Time Flies So Fast

2008-12-30T21:54:00.001+08:00

I 'm so freaking tired after playing basketball with my friends.
But all of these things are going to end soon as the New Year
is coming. And guess what, tomorrow is the last day for 2008.
And I'm actually be come a senior. Right now, I will stop my crap before
it gets worse especially when my irritating brother, Tashima,
read this.

Today, my shooting is getting better. But i lose my concentration
in the middle because my little peishan disturb me when I'm shooting.
But i get a higher score than her. Haha.
Anyway, we play the swing while killing some time waiting for them.
We play until it gets boring. Then, they come and play basketball
together. We play until 6 then suddenly sir appeared out of no where.
So we just went home and i get cheated again by 185 bus.
I hate that bus!! Cheat my feelings!!!

Anyway, got to go.
Peace out!

Going Out!

2008-12-27T19:18:00.005+08:00

Today woke up about 8am. Early right, i know.
Thanks to my sister who woke me. Anyway, she ask
me to eat breakfast with her at Jurong Point. So i took
a shower and get dress. We go ate at MacDonald.
After out breakfast, we go walked at Jurong Point 2.
I bought new sling bag and a storybook. I don't know
i can finish reading it or not. Anyway, we bought DVD
and some personal things. Between, I'm not the one
who pays all of this...hehe.
Thanks sis for bringing me go shopping.

Tomorrow have competition at SAFRA.
Hope I can shoot well.
Monday, my parent is coming back.
Tuesday, have shooting training.

Almost all the days are pack.
Schools are going to reopen soon
and I still haven buy my books. Shit!
Being a student is hard work.

People will never change

2008-12-22T21:08:00.003+08:00

I’m so piss off today after playing basketball with my fellow friends.

Why people must so such things that make other people mad?

I know I do, but I know my mistake and I apologize.

Some of them don’t. They know how to find other peoples fault and blaming on us. Why they never admit?

Why they need to be so extra? Or they just want to be a one man show? Is it, they don’t know what the meaning of teamwork is? Always think of them selves but never think of others? This people will say things that are not necessary.

Do things that are not supposed to do.

The words they are saying is not even important.

The people don’t even know what he or she saying.

Just forget it. I know this people will never change…

2008-12-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

I'm so damn angry that today we never go east coast. All because of our special friends. Or else we already have fun like mad. Also we will have a lot of pictures to post inside this blog. The date is getting nearer and they last minute tell us that they cannot go out. I was like so piss off...ARG!!! Who ask u to go out that often? The rest of u who actually want to go, I want to apologize to cancel the outing. All thanks to our special people, because of them, we can't go. And for your info, today weather is hot and sunny. Haiz...just forget it. Next time, I don't want to plan any outing again! Between, now my phone really needs to repair. But I don't know can or not. Just hope it can. Or else I need to withdraw money, from

the bank to buy new phone. Mom, I miss u so much. Whenever I have shooting trainings,

I always came back late and also u always at home alone.

But now, I feel the loneliness that u went through. I need to do some house chores like u always does. Whenever I’m alone at home, my tears keep

rolling down to my cheek as I keep thinking

of u. Can’t wait to hear your voice again.

Lots of love, rashidah

2008-12-06T18:13:00.002+08:00

Sobsob. My phone spoil.
Press the buttons but nothing come out.
So difficult to msg people.
So all of u who have my number,
i'm so sorry but don't call or msg me.
I want to use my spare phone but
my brother is using. Shit man him.
Got money, never buy phone but buy
mp3. When i saw him charging the mp3,
i was like so piss off. I know ur phone
also spoil but right now u using my phone.
Now, when u have money, at
least u buy secondhand phone.
Don't need expensive one.
It is so difficult to have a brother like
him. Always give problem one.
I hope he can be more responsible kind.

If i have a wish, i wish my phone can repair
or buy me a new phone.

2008-12-03T15:56:00.005+08:00

Mum dad, have a safe trip.

I miss you both.
Don't think too much about me.
I will be fine.
I will keep praying for you until
you come back to Singapore.

I LOVE YOU

2008-12-01T18:45:00.002+08:00

Hey I'm back!
I'm so freaking tired.
I can't even feel my legs because of
the 9+hrs of foot drills and arm drills.
Right now, I'm having my 2 weeks off .
Maybe, next week I'm going out with
my friends. At least, i can enjoy my holidays
for once.

2008-11-28T11:45:00.002+08:00

I'm going away for the
next three days for camp.
This will be my last camp for the year.
I will be back on Monday.
So anything just tag me.

2008-11-24T12:02:00.002+08:00

I know, i promise u guys about the hong kong trip.

So here it is.

Day 1

Come to school early in the morning about
6.00+. Then the CI check our bags.
Aboard the bus. And on the way to Changi airport.
Reach already, and check in our bags.
We have our light breakfast at mcdonald at the T2
with sir and mam. Then it's about time to go in
take the plane. And u know what, i get to sit beside suriati.
I was shocked, but no choice just sit with her.
So i wanted to forget the past between me and her
but look forward to the future. Still no choice but
to talk with her like normal friend.
When we reach hong kong, we met our tour giude
uncle raymond. He brought us to the bus
and went to seat to the peak tram. I think.
The tram went all the way up to the Victoria peck.
It was so damn cold and whenever one strong wind came,
everybody were like...
We were separated into groups and look around.
We took group picture and the scenery.
It was supersuper nice. I love it.
In hong kong, the sunset was early.
Like in hong kong 6+pm
in s'pore about 7/8 pm.
We had our dinner in the mosque
with the Pasir Ris Crest.
And one of the boy, is super cute...hehe
Anyway, come back to hotel.
Roommate with Shirui. And debrief.

Day 2

Woke up about 6am because i cannot sleep

anymore. Bath and go down to have breakfast.
We board the bus and uncle raymond
was telling us about the history of the tunnel.
I sat behind diana and shafiqa cause those two
is the only one can make me laugh like hell.
Seriously, they the only one can make me laugh.
We visited Golden flower, it's scenery was nice and windy.
Then go to the repulse bay. I think that's the spelling.
It was a beach, and have a incredible view.
We took alot alot of picture. Until,
we didn't check the time, and we were late + scolded.
We went t Jumbo Kingdom, looked at yacht.
It was like super expensive, and yeah, only the
rich people owns it. Have our lunch
but i have no appetite to eat because of my dizziness.
The malay boys from pasir ris crest was so noisy.
But they are funny. So need to endure.
Then, on the way to the airport security.
There are few jpc student tag along.
We have a interaction between them,
but in the middle, i feeling very very dizzy.
I seriously want to throw up.
So i just keep quite in the bus and
put my head down. After we reach,
they ask to go to the washroom.
When, the door was open, i quickly go in
and vomit. The rest of my friends keep knocking
at the door. And ask whether i alright.
But after the vomiting, i feel a little bit better.
Have presentation, this and that.
Then dinner. Now i got appetite.
We went t ladies street, but i never bought anything.
We had debrief at my room,
good thing it is not messy, and lights off.

Day 3

Woke up, bath then breakfast.
We went to MongKok Police Station.
We had introduction on the Police force.
There's this identification room,
there's a room with lot of video cameras.
Next, we visit the emergency unit, presentation.
We then have a visit at the dogs and commander car.
The dog's name is called Fantom, i think, super tall and big.
We looked at the equipment after that and it was heavy.
Have our lunch, then went to Sir Eillis Kadoorie Sec.
We had a tour around the school.
Have a friendly basketball match.
We lose to the school, as the other team were basketballers.
So nevermind. We had dinner with u know who, Pasir ris crest.
Ladies street after that, brought things for brother and myself
We had debrief and lights off at 1am. Slept at 2.

Day 4

The Pasir Ris Crest going home today, sadded.
Can't see him anymore. Thanks for Shah, now i know
what is his name. But the good thing, we going to Disneyland.
WooooHoooo... it was super fun. Group 1 & 2 combined
together and play the rides. Especially the space mountain,
we took that ride 3 times. It is like a roller coaster but
just no loop. I got buy some things, like wallet, soft toys, etc.
We took picture with the characters. Like winnie the pooh.
Han, don't be jealous...hehe.
About 7, have fireworks. It was super nice.
We have our dinner at kfc but never go ladies market
because it's getting late. Then me and weilun kena
debrief. So we try not to screw up. And u now what,
our debrief is better from the last few nights...yeah for us

Day 5

I'm back to Singapore!!
Breakfast/airport/check in bag.
We shop at the airport, we like trying
to spent our money till finish.
I sat on aeroplane to write essay.
And i finish mine before it land.
I take cab home, 6.20 bucks.
And home sweet home.

This 5 days pass so fast and i hope i can go again.

Anyway shafiqa is having her obs at pulau ubin.
I'm not going to see her 5 days and like after she
come back, the next day i'm the one need to go camp.
So it's like 8 days sia i cannot see her. Sadded.
And i'm so missing her man. Take care alright,
i pray for u that u will come back safe and sound.

Okay, i think i'm going to end my post here.
Keep in touch with my blog cause u never know
something great will happen.

2008-11-22T16:20:00.001+08:00

HEY YO!! I'M BACK!!! MISS ME ANYONE???

2008-11-16T13:27:00.002+08:00

Sorry, i never post for the last few
days. Because i get so busy about my cca,
until i forget to take care about my health.
Now i feeling alot better as the doctor give me
a stronger medicine.

Yesterday, my siblings and i, including my 2 cousin,
watching Madagascar2. First we like thinking to watch
at vivo but there alot of people and also the
tickets sold out. We like just reach there about 1+
and the tickets sold until the 6+ shows. Is like damn alot.
So we watch at the plaza singapura. After that
we ate at kfc. And came back to vivo cause my 2 cousin
wanted to play water. Then back home.

Today my house have.... Idk the english word but in
malay is 'kenduri'. I think.
So need to wake up early in the morning
to help my parent to move all the chairs.
Now not many people, but there will be
alot in the afternoon i bet.

Yeah!! I'm going hong kong tomorrow!!
I already pack my bag except few things.
But it can wait until all the guest go home.
Anyway for next 5 days i will not posting.
I will coming back on friday.
And i will tell u all about the trip for the next
post, i'll promise.
If anything, just tag.
Ok now, i need to help my mum.
Bye everyone especially my darlings.
Like: farizah, zana, maimon, junkiat, han.

2008-11-06T20:14:00.003+08:00

Oh ya i forgot. Today is dae's anniversary. Happy 4th month!! Hope it last even after we graduated. That's us!!

2008-11-06T18:15:00.002+08:00

Hello people!!
I'm alright now just a bit of coughing
here and there. My eyes turn to normal.
As my cheeky brother, tashima, keep laughing
non stop. But i just ignore him.
Watever lar bang!!!

Alright let's talk about today.
Just now i have shooting training.
Me, diana, zana and farizah already
plan to make all our shots out.
When its our turn, we try to do that.
But i try to get some go in, and u know what
i really did. I was shock + happy. Cause
the last few days i was hoping that most of it goes in
but.........
Then, the coach try to make his decision
for the time being. The coach said that the
girls only 4 he choose and he need 5. It was
diana, cq, ps, suriati. He said he will choose one more.
In my mind, i was happy cause i never get in but
i think again and i feel like i left one out.
Cause most of the sec2 he choose except me.
But he said next week he will choose again
so maybe i try to get all my shots in the black target.

Yeah!!!! Tmr will see my favorite NCO!!!
CAN"T WAIT!!
I miss her like hell!!

K gtg Maybe next time i post again
when i free...hehe

2008-11-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

Sorie if today post is very short.
Because now i'm sick and my eyes swollen
like goldfish. I don't know why, i think
the heat inside my body is high.
Anyway, i need my rest.
Maybe tomorrow i will be posting
again if i feel better.
K, gtg
bye

2008-10-25T22:56:00.008+08:00

I'm so exhausted.

I just came back from my cousin place.
They have open house, i think.
You know, when have open house there will be food,
without any wasting more time,
i take a plate serve my mum water and carry on eating.
But good think i can stop, if not,
i don't know where to put my stomach.
Eat very full, then go in my cousin room.
First, i saw them playing game at the com.
Then when their parents call,
they walk out of the room and
u know who take over, me!
I go check my friendster, myspace, facebook and so on.
In the evening, more cuzzy came over
and they make so much noise in the room.
I have to bare with it cause
i know this is not my house.
Then i shut down the com cause later,
i scared the rest want to play and they fighting over each other.
I go to the other room, somesort a girls room,
then i saw the girls playing uno.
So i join along. We play bet, for the first game the loser
must bring us a water.
But good thing is not me.
Second, the loser must show all files
in the phone including msg.
Suddenly, i lose.
I show all pic except some, also my msg but not
all cause some are his msg.
And, no way i'm showing them the msg.
That's personal!!
Third, the loser must do a catwalk
infront of us but there is no time,
as me and my cousin wanted to go home.
When i reached home, my cousin, haziq came over.
I hugged him and kissed him as much as i can,
cause i miss him so much.
Long time, he never come to my house
since my mum stop babysit him.
Miss him many many.
Hope he can come to my house more often.

Here some photos i took just now.

me chatting with friends

playing psp

My cousin, hakim

Him again.

Kids now a days, always concentrate their games only.

My cousins.

Last of all...

ME!!

Actually i have more cousin then u think,
this is just few of them.
Alright, nothing to say.
Take care to all my readers.
And have a good night.
Rashidah, signing off.

2008-10-24T18:42:00.004+08:00

WOOOHHHOOOOO!!!!!
My sec2 life is finally over!!!
Today is the last day as also this is the last time
i'm going to see all my classmates for this year.
This year is lower sec.
Next year we going to be upper sec.
See what's the different between upper and lower sec.
MUHAHAHAHA!!!!
Next year, all sec 1 and 2 gonna die!! muhahaha....
Okay, let's move on.
Today, go to school like normal.
Most of the time, we just watch movie.
During math, we watch alvin and the chipmunks.
But we can't watch until finish cause time is up.
I WANT TO WATCH!!!! CAN ANYBODY LENT ME THIS
MOVIE!! PLEASE!!!!
Recess time, i never eat but just drink water.
Then i saw the sec5 walking pass me.
I guess they already finish their papers and i have
my eye sharp to see him. Suddenly, 1 group of
boys walk pass and i saw him!!!
He was giving me a big smile and that's
what i wanted all this while as last time
it just a fake smile he giving me.
Anyway, hope he can pass his o'level.
For the rest of my friends, i'm going
to miss u during holidays. Maybe 1 day we go
out together and all the people out there,
enjoy your holidays.

Yours truly,
Rashidah

2008-10-10T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hello people!!
Today is his last day of school.
But i was very sad cause i can't see him anymore.
After school, i met shafiqa for awhile den
we talk about the graduation thing.
I was really scared that i can't see his face again
until i cried. Now, i seriously can't control my feelings
towards him as i really like him.
I try to forget about him but i just can't.
I still haven say to him all my feelings
that have been kept inside my heart for months.
Now it is too late. I'm gonna miss u.
I'll just cry. My friend come towards me and ask
what happen, but i never tell her.
She ask me to follow her go jp
den she treat me long john silver's pie.
She say that this is good to relax ur mind.
So i eat it, less then 5 minutes i already
finish all up. My friend was shocked,
den she ask me to finish up her's.
Without wasting anymore time, i eat until finish.
We come back to school, wait for few more minutes
then we change to pt kit.
Anyway today weiting be the pledge
taker and she done it well. Good job.
Today npcc also not that much,
but we slack alot.
When we want to go home,
me and ps play prank at maimon...haha
We take her water bottle and her house keys.
Then we ask her to take but she didn't.
Because we kind enough, we have to walk
towards her and give back her things.

Okay, i need to stop here cause i very tired.
Also my brain is not function properly.
And i need my good night sleep.

Night people!!

2008-10-05T16:49:00.005+08:00

Today never go out.
As my house got open house.
This year, i seriously no mood to talk with
my cousins all...i don't know why, just i feel that way.
Okay i don't want to talk about today so
let's talk about yesterday.

Yesterday never go to the wedding but i go out
with family and uncle all.
Yesterday we go 9 houses. Wow...so many house.
Eat there, eat here until i don't
know where to put my stomach.
I have collect alot of money.
Only 4 days i can collect till $200
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
actually i want to put some photos
but i can't find the cable...haiz where did
my bro put...
Nevermind, upload photos other days.

Now i want to write a little bit from my heart.
When you msg me, you make me feel save
When i didn't hear ur voice, i feel something bad will happen to me
All this time, its just a pretend between both of us
If i got the chance to meet you alone, i will say everything that have been
keeping in my heart all this while.
Now people have difficulties to see me smiling, as now i can't hide my feelings
as i truly need you.
Hope you be okay. Good luck for ur exam.

2008-10-02T20:38:00.005+08:00

Finally i can get a chance to post again. Last few weeks i never post cause i'm busy preparing for my end of year exam. Last tuesday is my last paper and the next day is Hari Raya. To me, this year hari raya is boring. Nothing special, but i seriously don't understand why people never puasa but they want to hari raya...haiz. On wednesday, my family go out late cause now my granny move house. So must help them serve the drink for the guest. About 4+ den we go out but never wear this year baju raya cause my sis clothes not ready... Sad sia, she in the morning was crying...haiz So we wear last few years clothes, that is BLUE. The actual is BLACK. Hope my sis clothes is ready fast fast so we can wear on saturday. Kay lazy to tell the full detail. Just now, i go out with my squadmate but not even half follow...haiz. We go imm buy present for sir and mam wedding gift. But sad sia i cannot go to the wedding cause my parent change their mind and don't let me. Anyway my family want to go out this sat so no choice, must follow them. Like my friend told me ' Family is the most important in your life '. The first thing we reach there is to have our lunch. Then play water at level 3. Finally buy the present. We waste time there by doing the card, at the macdonald. We go home about 5+ and reach home about 6+. Right now i'm exhausted, but tomorrow meet the campcraft girls to but present, wah... the three little kitten need to buy three present, can bankrupt sia!! Nevermind, ones in a life time buy present for the same person. Now i just can't wait to meet campcraft girls tmr. Girls, i will see u all for few more hours!!!

2008-09-11T18:04:00.004+08:00

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tears every once
in a while
And even thought it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let u go
And I need you to know
I miss you
I miss you
Thanks for being there for me
when i was lonely
I hope you pass your o'level

2008-09-05T17:47:00.004+08:00

This one week of holiday is kinda boring... i have three days course of first aid. To me so far its ok. Kinda boring sometimes. Good thing the lecturer or sir never find out that i was sleeping... some more sit infront...haiz. The third day have theory and practicle test, and i pass...wooohoo!!! Congarts to all the sec2 who come for the course. Also the examiner said that my batch is better than the last year batch...hahaha... sec3 don't be jealous... Anyway i miss my nco!! I miss shafiqa, diana, maimon, farizah, my darling, syazana and few others... Most of all I MISS SHAFIQA!!! She always there for me when i need somebody to talk to. She help me go through all my problems and much more. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! I also miss my darling, he go malaysia and i don't have a chance to meet him and say goodbye... Hope u have fun. Miss and love u. Never get video today cause the video is too big to put inside the cd...boohoo
I want to see campcraft video!!!

I also miss campcraft!!

imissyou!!!

2008-08-27T17:36:00.002+08:00

Just now, i was very happy to see your smile... Whenever u smile at me, i just can't stop thinking about you. You make my day with your smile. Now i don't know i still need u or just want to be friend. I can be your friend but i need you to stop lying to me. Please... I just need you to tell the truth to me, that's all. I want to be with you _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ !!!

2008-08-18T19:28:00.002+08:00

I'm not the only one for you but you're the only one for me. You make my life special back then, but now its difficult to let you go. Its difficult to find a guy like you. You are very different from other guys. You come to my life at the right time. You come to my life when i was lonely. You come to my life and make it better. Now it change. I know i already confess to you but its not enough. There still some left i want to say to you but i don't have the courage yet. I'm sorry that you can't concentrate on your studies cause of me... I'm really sorry...

2008-08-16T16:49:00.003+08:00

I'm happy right now...but inside me, i'm still sad. A lot of things in my mind i can't really handle it but usually to solve this problem is to do one by one. But time is running out and i don't know i can cope with it or not. *You come in to my life at the right time. That day, you make me feel special. I'm happy that me and you confess to each other about somethings. But still, you make my life easier that time.* In the morning, woke up earlier2 and go to school for npcc. Sec2 wear pt kit to fall in cause we have physical training in the morning. Then we change to full u. We suppose have test then sir johann angry cause of somethings that i don't need to mention. So the NCOs take over and revise our drills. We even learn some new drill today. The funny thing is, they ask to turn left, right, left, right until make us confuse. I even turn the wrong way...haha Soooo paiseh!!! More worst...sir is looking at us and i turn the wrong way infront of him. shit arh!! Long story cut short, we change to mufti and have our muster parade. After everything, we go jp eat. Then i thinking of buying memory card, but it is out of stock...i was like' what the...' So we go to the park near jp. We play there almost 2h...haha Its damn fun. Next time, we must go there again k guys?!? We go 7eleven to buy drinks and junkiat treat us!!! Thanks darling!! I reached home like 3+ but good thing my parents not home...phew Ok thats all for today...

2008-08-13T16:48:00.003+08:00

Nothing in this world make my life easier. I have an easier life when i met him. He is a caring, responsible, romantic kind of guy. I get to know him when i'm a sec 2. I remember that he call me 'pendek' whenever he see me. But that one day, he go to the barber to have his haircut. The barber don't understand what he was saying so he cut his hair 'botak' and that's what i call him then. Both of us like to call each other using this name, only sometimes we call by name. Since then, every night we message each other. And i remember got ones he call me 'baby shidah'. He is the first guy calling me that. That is the time i stop calling him 'botak' and I started to call him by his real name. Then our relationship as a friend stays like normal. We often see each other at school but i didn't tell anyone about this feeling except few of my friends that i really trust. This group of my friends are quite close. Some secret we shared among each other except few more that meant to be secret forever. Then one day, I check some of his friends profile. I look at the photos and saw him and a girl that i know. I was shocked to see that. Then the next day, i message him ' what are u doing?'. He reply he got no mood to talk, and ask weather i go to his friend profile?. I say yes. Then he apologize to me about the picture and now i know who is the girl he like. When i read the message, i started to cry. He keep apologizing me about this, and i continue crying. I don't know what to do. I cry most of the time cause of him. I don't want to let him go cause i really like him. I want to leave my life with him. I CARE ABOUT YOU SO MUCH!!! Please don't go!! I can't carry on my life without you! PLEASE STAY CLOSE AND DON'T GO!!!!

2008-08-08T20:59:00.003+08:00

Morning wake up damn earlier.
Get ready and go to school.
Change to full uniform, and we need to march
infront the whole school!! PAISEH SIA!!
After marching, change to our red tshirt and go to the hall
to see the performance. I only can see him for 1 minute
at the stage...boohoo
After the whole performance is over, do some reflection
and go home. Den meet cq,ps,wt infront
the school and take some pic.
I went home, eat den sleep. Wake up
at 1+, den get ready to go out to
celebrate ps birthday.
Happy Birthday Peishan!!!

2008-08-04T17:32:00.002+08:00

I love you, i love you not
I love you, i love you not

This question keep going to my head over and over.
I can understand that u like her
but i don't understand why must be her...
Banyak-banyak orang kenapa mesti dia?
Aku sukakan kau, aku buat ape saja untuk kau.
Tapi kenapa dia? aku boleh sayang kan kau macam aku
sayang kan family aku.

Aku boleh tunggukan kau hingga semua sudah
habis. I promise myself that i will wait for you
no matter what. I love you!

2008-08-01T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hello people on earth!! Back to post!
Well... today lesson was normal.
The last period is science, so we need to go to the lab to do some experiment. After the bell rang, i go home straight away. Never look back. Reach home, bath, no time to eat then go back to school again for np.
NPCC was okay but the last part was very sian.
Sec2 kene scolding from sir almost 3 times.
Its about the salute thing...Its like so unfair cause the sec1
do the same but they never get scolding. Some of the sec3
also do the same but the sec 2 kene again.
SIR ITS SO UNFAIR!!!
So everything sec2 get scolding!?!
When changing, me and wt show attitude to everyone.
Even infront our NCOs.
anyway sorry NCOs sometimes my emotion
can cause troubles so anything just bare with me...
However, my anger goes down and i back to happy again.
I went home and diana sent me go bus stop.
Anyway thanks diana.
I like u so much
please don't do this to me!

2008-07-31T21:07:00.002+08:00

School normal. Nothing interesting, just i stay back
at school wait for cq and ps.
Cq got project and ps got maths thing.
So me and wt walk around the school like an idiot.
While waiting them, we watching them march for ndp.
The first few march in parade is nice but the last few is
getting bad to worst...haiz.
Guys i know u can do it so JIAYOU!!
After watching them, then sir ask we all why we stay at
school and blah blah blah.
Then we said that tmr he going to check our uniform.
Must be tiptop condition...I was like what the?!?
Before everything finish, we went home first.
Reach home take a shower, eat and polish my badge.
Put everything right in position and now
I'm ready for tmr!! World, look out for rashidah!

~~Happy Birthday MOM!!~~

2008-07-30T16:16:00.003+08:00

Lesson just now as per normal...
Nothing special, but only have maths test.
I think i can pass cause some question i forget how to do...hehe
Anyway, go to canteen, say all my friends goodbye before going home.
Then i top up my card and go to jp to see my bro working.
My bro give free drinks to me...wooohooo. Anyway today is a hot weather,
so thanks bro!!
Today is my sister birthday so...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!!!!
I love you so much...
so sad u need to overtime...we really
hopping to see u come back home early...

2008-07-29T16:42:00.002+08:00

School was alright. All lesson like normal except mt
cause the teacher not in school so we have one free period.
After school, i have survey. It is about the school.
It only take few minutes to finish up. Then my class
should have tllm, but don't lar i think they postpone so
i don't care. Saw farizah walking home so i walk with her.
Reach home, take a bath and eat. Now I'm here posting this
blog.

Today is my uncle birthday so
Happy Birthday Uncle!!!
However right now i can't really see u, but I like to thank u
about all the fun things we had each other when i'm young.
I miss u so much!! However our relationship is very far but
our heart is very close...my family like to say
Happy Birthday!!

2008-07-26T23:02:00.002+08:00
In the morning come to school cause have npcc. First the sec 2 have pt, den need to march. We need to seperate cause the supporting con need to pratice more on their marching, so the rest learn NEW THINGS!! We learn slow march, buka, hormat and many more... but sometimes even the NCO can't remember the command...haiz. We need to march back and forth, back and forth don't know how many times. Today training very sian... After training, thought taking pic, den who need to go already so we just take pic on fri. Then we go jp, eat and go home!!!

2008-07-24T18:51:00.002+08:00
Just now come to school like normal...but most of my friends miss me so much especially my kitten, shafiqa, maimon and few of my friends. They hug me so tight even i can't breath...haha jkjk. Anyway i happy to come back to school so i can cope on my studies. After school i got swimming but i never go in the water as my mom forbidden me to go in. So i just go there for attendance. When i say i'm not going the water, peishan want to punch me as she scared to swim. But she go there first, i follow weiting home to take her phone as she coming along to see them swimming. After everything is over, we wait for peishan to get dress and we go out buy some snacks at 7eleven. We buy mashed potato as we wait chuqian to come. We wait for her more than 15min she haven come. So we just walk slowly go out the main entrance and wait fo her. But she still not there, so we just go our seperate ways and went home.

2008-07-23T17:00:00.003+08:00

In the morning, I thought i can go to school and see my friends.
When my alarm was ringing, I have difficulty to open my eyes.
Then i look myself in the mirror and saw that my eyes was swollen...
My parents don't even let me go to school, so i just go back to sleep.
When i woke up, i feeling abit dizzy. Then my mom ask me to eat breakfast
before eating my medicine. So i eat some loaf of bread and eat my medicine.
At home nothing to do, so i just finish polishing my boots and get ready
for npcc on fri.

The day i sick

2008-07-22T17:58:00.003+08:00
Today i'm so sick!! I can't even go to school... Felt that i want to die. Good thing I have a mother who care for me so much. I love u mom! I feel very sad that i can't see my friends, but i know that they will always be there for me. I love u guys!!

2008-07-21T18:07:00.002+08:00
Back to post!! Today is racial harmony day as we all wear our traditional costume to go to school. I will be wearing my white kebaya but i never wear my outside thing as later i scared it tangle with my bag. In the morning, I think twice before wearing my costume. While walking to the bus stop, everybody was looking at me...I was paiseh until i don't even dare to look in front. I look at the floor all the way while walking to go to school. Then i suppose to meet my friend at her block. I call her phone but no one ans...I carry on my journey to go to school. When i reach already, I saw my friend waiting for me... I was like what the...School start and i see that 1/4 of my class wearing traditional costume as the rest wearing school uniform.After school i have the ne survey that i must do cause last week i never go...The dae gang was thinking that after everything, we want to take neoprint but suddenly Shah and Zhen Wei go home already..so cause of them our plan spoilt Anyway its raining so we can't go home but we stay in school and take pic!!

2008-07-20T15:19:00.002+08:00

Today is a boring day... Nothing to do.
I always like to eat, watch tv, eat again while watching tv...
Finish my art homework. Left to hand in tomorow.
Anyway tomorow is racial harmony day. So i think,
just wear my malay traditional costume.

I know that we just friends
But why u lie to me??

2008-07-19T15:23:00.004+08:00

Hello people!! I'm here to post!
On thursday i have swimming after school.It is at the jurong west there.Good thing is somewhere near from school so we can walk or take a bus from there. It was hard cause i don't remember how to swim?? The last i swim is on last year when me and my friends go jurong east. The rest of the time, i just play with the water...Anyway the coach say i have a bad kick and ask me to do some funny exercise at home. Then time is pass, me and ps go take a bath. Ps wearing pe tshirt and me wearing school uniform to went home. When we go out of the toilet, we saw the rest continue playing the slide and the lazy pool. Then we were finding mr yeo to ask him, can we go home. Then we try asking the sec 1, they say they don't even see him. So we was thinking that he go out first. So we go out and continue walking to the exit.

Now yesterday, have npcc service day. The whole npcc in Singapore was doing the same thing. We need to knock doors to doors talking about crime prevention. We were separated to groups, the three kitten kena separate, as peishan group no.?? weiting group no.11, and me group no.13. Good thing i in that group cause have diana!! but i alone as a sec 2...sob sob but wat heck. My group have 5 people so sec 1 have 3 of them. After we dispatch, we first go to the highest floor and start there. We knock at the door but nobody ans. Some they just look at the hole but never open. Most of them, were chinese and so the 2 sec 1 boys talks alot. As i just wait one side. thinking is there any malay people living in this blk. As we go down and down, finally i get a chance to talk to a malay resident. I continue talking about 2 min and carry on with the rest. We finish everything about 5.00 as we need to come back about 5.45. So we need to stand about 45 min for the rest to come back. After everybody come back, we went back to school and do some debrief and go home. We in the toilet take some photos. And went home.

2008-07-16T20:18:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, waste my time polishing my boots and get ready for np today. Then after school, we sec 2 meet mr yeo for briefing. He go say out those name who get chosen for the ndp. peishan,chuqian, weiting, me, shah, weilun and few more did not call our names.
Ps, Cq, Wt, me, shah and weilun are disappointed....we really want to go in the supporting contingent!!!! Actually me, peishan and chuqian have survey to do at com lab, den we see the time and it already 2.35 as we suppose to reach 2.30 sharp. We thinking that we can go for the makeup next Mon cause sir talking so long almost take about half an hour. After the briefing, he said if have any issues can talk to him. We let the rest go first cause we want this a personal talk. After everyone leave the room, we ask mr yeo why we never get in? Den he say must give chance to others blah blah blah...when he talking, my tears rolling down my cheeks. We go back to the canteen, and ask whether they want to stay back or not? The 4 of us plus shah wanted to stay back cause at home nothing to do. Den we saw the nco walking towards us and we tell them about it. They shock to hear cause they will have a difficulty to train them. Then i started crying, they try to console me den i stop. The next minute i cry again...i still can't believe that i didn't get in the supporting con. Then all of us walking towards diana and shafiqa. Then, i start crying again. This time i really let everything out until i don't have any tears left. I think in one day i cry 6 times...this is my world record...hehe. Then we follow them change to half-u and help them carry their things to their bag. Then we waited until they finish the whole process and go home.

2008-07-14T15:48:00.002+08:00

Today, assembly is boring...I also don't know about wat, cause i'm busying sleeping...
Den we stay back at hall to have our pc but this time i only concentrate 5%
and the rest i don't even bother to hear...
We go back to our class den do some reflection about today talk about cyberwellness.
After tat have science, our science teacher have change and this time our
teacher is funny. The first period he was talking about his school days.
The last 2 period he start his teaching about matter. It is easy cause
we already learn this when we pri school..hehe
After that, I go straight home (wow...first time reached home earlier)
den take a bath, and watch tv.
Today is my off day cause there is no homework...yeah for me!!

2008-07-13T19:58:00.002+08:00

Today i go geylang with my mom, sis and my aunt...
I also don't know why we go there so i don't need to tell any info about this...
so after go buy things den everybody getting hungry so we go eat. I think btw 4 of us,
i eat alot however i small...hehe. After eating we went home almost 5+. We take the
train back home den my aunt need to change the train at jurong east cause her house at
bukit batok...we carry on our journey back home...Till we reach our destination.
When i reach home, i quickly take a shower cause i am sweating like nobody business...
That's the end af my story...

2008-07-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

Hey first time writing this!!
Hmm...lets start about yesterday.
Go to school like a normal student...
Den after school got npcc...den some of them still haven
finish their promotion test and i need to endure my hand cause
we are holding the rifle and it is heavy...
After npcc we got the sec 2 streaming so sec 2 get to go off first!!!
I stay at school with peishan, chuqian and weiting to wait for our parents to come
But my parents didn't came cause they need to go geylang for some purpose
i don't ...but my bro came for me and i like to thank him so much!!
den we go outside the school to wait for them...Firstly chuqian's mom came,
den peishan's mom...den we ask them to go in first as my bro haven came yet..
Den i saw my friend so i can borrow her phone to call my bro...
After i put down the next minute i saw my bro from the corner of my eyes...
We go in like nothing happen, den we go straight up to the hall...
I don't want wat happen in the hall cause me and my bro is sleeping
After meeting my teacher, den we go eat at kfc cause both of us is very hungry
Den went home....